The attempt we did last Sunday, 26.06.2005 was superb. Although we received alot of positive feedbacks from the audience and our supporters, we can feel the dissappointment inside us, covering up with the smile.
They say 5th/4th runner up wasn`t bad afterall. But for my own opinion I feel we don`t deserve this cause we did so much during the holidays for just this competition. The sacrifices that Kim Possible made to fight thru the objections from his parents, where mis3 had to deal with works at school, when Blackmore had to "ponteng" school, where 4tein had to "cabut" her SJAB stuffs, when Linah had to take leave often from her work, waiting for Womad`s approval to have him out of the National Service, having Paradoxura to run away from her Student Leader Course and Aiin trying to take a leave from her work at Swensen. Look, though we all may not have given our full commitment, nevertheless, I feel the wastage for everything.
I`ve given my very best, just like the others. I do this due to my passion and likes. Cos I love my own culture. I want to feel the stage for something I would like to contribute. In other words, Dedication. I`m all out for Fatamorgana. I love Fatamorgana just like my second family after friends and family. I want Fatamorgana to live strong and well known for our interests and passion. I want it to still be alive though I am out of the school next year. I want to perform with my buddies which actually made me feel my first attempt very best.
It`s true that each of us have different interests, from different lines, cca and more. And we`re selected specially to be in the team, together fighting onak dan duri. But, why this sudden shockness that each of you are unable to give your best commitment? I thought you we used to say "Hidup Mati Dramatis!". Why the sudden say... "We`ll go back to our own path".
Tears may stream. Anytime. I hope we stay together making our dreams alive.
Don`t ever say, "I wanna back out". We were brought here together, to go up again together holding hands, climbing and fighting everything.
This defeat has shown me the best that what actually a team should do when we lost. No matter what, everything has pushes me for another challenge, to make up for the lost.
Fatamorgana, despite tears, fears, joys and cheers, still you`re my evrything.
Deeply in Love with Fatamorgana,
Boncitraa.
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